Written by Moumina
In the early 1980’s I went to participate in a Counselling training with Sagarpriya and Nishant at Lago Maggiore in Italy. I knew Sagarpriya from Pune I and her work was most inspiring to me. At that time my job was to be one of the ‘European Therapists’ . Our role was to travel around the many European Osho communes, leading workshops. That meant I couldn’t live in Rajneeshpuram where Osho was. It was heart-breaking for me.
I shared this in the training. Sagarpriya asked me to look at Osho’s picture and tell him how I felt. I just burst into weeping and sobbing. Then I noticed Sagarpriya sitting nearby , with tears streaming down her face. One of the other participants asked her if it was okay for a therapist to cry in front of a group. She answered calmly that sometimes the therapist feels in sympathy with a participant.
Then she said to me ‘ There is too much Wanting when you have Osho in front of you. You need to have him behind you – feel him behind you.’ I was surprised by this and at first it was difficult to let go of the strong longing I had to be in Osho’s physical presence. But then I felt the shift and the wonderful relaxation of feeling Osho behind me. As I write this now I can feel it again.