Question: ”A part of me is lazy and I judge myself for lacking discipline in
having goals and direction. Another part is relaxed and just likes to allow
things to happen and be satisfied with what comes my way. This creates a
tension inside, a frustration, and I feel I might be missing out on creating
more value in my life.”
Answer:
In Star Sapphire we are not supporting goals and discipline as these are
things that happen through effort. Our mind takes charge of future goals,
takes responsibility for them and squeezes all juice out of our life. Instead, in
Star Sapphire we want to support trust and presence.
It sounds to me as if one of your polarities is judging the other. By asking the
two eyes you could find out which side has those judgements. You could then
find out what would raise their satisfaction level. Maybe it’s your male side
and he needs some movement and aliveness rather than goals and discipline?